Hey there… how’re you doing today?
The time now is 10:46pm and I feel in my spirit to send you a letter.
Now playing: Ikechi by Minister GUC
So, sometimes last month, I paid a friend a visit after church and we got talking about the pressure that people face. Yes, the ones that weigh them down so much that they almost sink into depression, and how that ‘What a friend we have in Jesus’- The Hymnal is such a profound charge to us as Christians, you know.
‘Oh what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.’
Everyone goes through this phase where they become anxious.
I mean… you log in to LinkedIn and everyone but you seems to be having it together, joining new organizations, taking up new roles, starting new projects, talking about their monthly income but there you are, you don’t even know where or how to start, or what you’re doing.
Maybe you even feel like there’s a whole lot to be done but you don’t know how it’s all going to come together, or if you have what it takes to even put it together.
At first, you can swear that you’re not overthinking it, but it’s seeping in, gradually. Then, it becomes full-blown and you’re wondering at what point you sank into the feeling
I feel you, honestly. I have been there too. I followed someone on IG who seemed to be living the life I have always dreamt of with so much ease.
I was so focused on the person’s wins that I forgot that where I was at the moment, I was killing it. I wanted to be this and that, the exact way the person had it. It wasn’t jealousy; not one bit, but I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to be ‘another’ someone.
One day, I thought about the whole thing and how much pressure I was putting on myself and I found myself crying. I said you know what… ‘God can’t use me to catch cruise. If he has said it, I’ll be it and his zeal will bring it to pass. I don’t need to put myself through this torture because I’m not there yet and I want to be there now. Naaahhh. I choose to work from a place of rest, not anxiety’.
That moment, I thought more about the fact that it is God that causes us to will and do of his good pleasure, I stopped getting anxious over things not going my way.
I have had my share of failures and successes, and as much as I’m not where I really want to be yet or even close, I try as much as possible to not compare myself with anyone. I try hard to not let myself be pressured by what someone is doing or have.
I became so focused on the parts of the word that say…
‘Eyes have not seen, neither have ears heard what the Lord has in store for them that love him and are the called according to his purpose’
‘And God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we could ask or think, according to the power that works in us’.
You see, these verses never let me run into anxiety over anything because as much as I want to watch someone do what I am planning to do and beat myself up for not doing it yet or achieving it yet, I realized that sulking over all that only weighs me down, and I don’t need that.
So, I go back to my journal and read all of God’s promises to me, with the assurance that HIS WORD DOESN’T GO UNFULFILLED OR RETURN TO HIM VOID; and that IF HE HAS SAID IT, HIS ZEAL WILL PERFORM IT.
It’s very easy to have plans for something and lay it bare at the foot of Jesus, saying ‘I don’t know how you’ll go about it. I have done all I can, and I’m just allowing you call the shorts. Let your will be done’, and be sure that you’ll get the best of the best. I mean… What’s the worst that would happen?
It’s cliché. I know. I’d say that too if it hadn’t worked for me all the years. That just saying ‘Let your will be done’ when you don’t have anywhere to turn to or don’t know anywhere to go is the only solution. And no… You’re not delusional, because it works.
And you see the song recommendation for today?? You should absolutely put it on repeat! A part of it says…
‘Have you seen what the strength of God can do? He can lift a man that’s down and out. Oh, what a might, mind-blowing treasure’. And that’s all you need.
My love. You’re gonna be alright. God’s working it all out. You’re right at the centre of his will. When you don’t know what to do, ask that his will be done. You’re in safe hands; You’re in God’s hands.
Have a great week ahead!